Pre-Wedding Thoughts Run Wild

It's been awhile since I've posted!
Excerpts from my journal - 4/10/2014.

I have so many thoughts. 

I am overwhelmed. In a good way. I feel like I could just write paragraphs of run-on sentences and still have more to say. I am going to Hawaii. I am finally going to be there! I can't wait. 

I am a dreamer. I used to daydream all the time. Still do. I like imagining where I'll be in 10 yrs, 20, 30...I like to imagine my luxurious vacations in Ireland, New Zealand, Germany, Greece...I like to picture my future children, what features of mine they'll have, their personalities...I like to imagine scenarios of romance. I'm a romantic. I think dreamers are usually romantics, or is it the other way around? There are a few specific moments that I have always dreamed of. I've always dreamed of going back to Hawaii, spending more time with my birth-family, my amazing wedding, and I get all of these things in one beautiful trip. 

I am getting married in Hawaii and all of my family will be there. 

I am overwhelmed.

I have been planning my dream wedding for about 2 yrs now. I've gone from very simple, candlelight receptions to rustic for fall to a Christmas, winter wedding to bright colors for spring. And, all of my plans have fallen through until now. And the best part is that for my actual wedding, I've had to do so little planning in comparison to hours upon days of planning for receptions that never happened. People just call me and ask what I want and I tell them. In what world does this ever happen?! The planning process itself has been better than anything I could ever have dreamed of. And you know, I dream. 

I have learned so much from my Nana, my birth-mother, and my mom in these last few weeks. I have learned about the proper etiquette, culture, and religion.

Lesson 1: Call everyone "Aunty" or "Uncle". It is a form of respect.

Lesson 2: Flowers are important - which is nice because I love flowers. Money put into flowers is money well spent.

Lesson 3: Make sure that everyone knows that you are grateful and continue to remind them to avoid hurting people's feelings.

Lesson 4: Constantly repeat Lesson 3, even if you feel like you have repeated it enough times.

I am overwhelmed.

I cannot wait to be in Hawaii with my families. I get to have my past, present and future all there in unity and I cannot wait...

Going to pack...